So it's summer...and it's normal to get bug bites right? Man, I haven't gotten one in so long, I forgot how it felt like xD But now, having a total of...14 bites, it's kind of a pain in the neck x.x... especially my ankles. Yesterday my left ankle was so swollen it was painful to walk around...so I kind of slept for most of the day not to mention it's pointless to go online or the computer anyway. It seriously resembled a pig's foot...you know, the type you see in chinatown, when the pig's dead and everything, all red and gross. Yeah, ok, maybe so you don't know or you shouldn't know, but just to give you an idea =P. Oo, and should I mention how my dad totally flipped when he saw the ankle. Well, um, yeah he did...on top of that my aunt and him were semi complaining and ranting away about how I could die and everything, I thought I was going to go insane soon from listening to them. But yeah, it's nice to know they care...somewhat. Unlike my uncle who just continued talking about the stupid lotto when the other two were talking about the bites. What the heck? Sometimes...you know what, never mind. I don't care what he thinks any more, he practically doesn't care about me anyway, so what's the point? I'm just happy that I don't have XP [Xeroderma pigmentosum], or any fatal skin disease like that. But what if I died? o.O...

And I promised a story didn't I? Let's see if my writing style changed...[hopefully it's lighter]

Walking towards the cool lawn, I could smell the light scent of the fresh, cut grass linger along the warm breeze, blending itself with the sweet scent of summer. Although the night was a lot cooler than the day, it was warm enough to melt an ice cube within the time span of a few minutes. Along with me, I brough a few glasses and a jug of iced tea, which started to condense right when I stepped foot out to the yard. I could hear someone tag along from behind, making small, low groans as they heavily walked up the slightly steep path. I could guess that he was probably angrily thinking, "why do I have to carry these loads?", and I slightly giggled to this, continuing to walk forth towards the table. Once I reached it, I set down the jug and glasses and ran towards him, helping him with the load.
"Thanks," he muttered, "I almost was almost bitten to death down there."
"Hehe, well sorry, you're the one who volunteered to carry those," I laugh back jokingly.
"Does the bug repellent even work? I could feel some things nipping me..."
"Hm, who knows? Should I spray you once more?"
"Sure."
We sprayed each other once more...feeling the cool liquid against my skin linger for only millisecond brough tingles to wherever it landed. The scent wasn't that great, but it's the least we could do for fending ourselves against the army of tiny, yet ferocious creatures.
"So...shall we lay out the mat?" he asked, now seemingly less annoyed.
"Hm...yeah I guess...but where?" I gazed around, still trying to adjust to the deepened darkness of dusk.
"How about..." I could feel him searching around too, trying to find a spot.
"There," we both replied at the same time. I quietly laughed while I felt him smiling as I did so.
"I'll go do it," he volunteered once again.
"Okay," I replied. [glad to be away from the heavy chores...just kidding xD]
I went back to the table to set both of us a drink, hearing and feeling that the ice was quickly diminishing. As he finished, I could see his silhouette drop down and laid spread out to relax upon the mat. He breathed heavily as if today's work took all the strength out of him. I walked over to him, listening the comforting clinks within the glasses as the ice collided with the edges of both cups. I sat down besides him, offering his cup, waiting for him to sit up and receive it. As I waited, I took a sip from mine, feeling the cool liquid drench the drought of my throat. Some how, I ended up finishing my drink within one gulp. I set my cup down, and saw that he still hasn't touched his yet. He got up slightly and wrapped his arm around my waist.
"Feed it to me," he commanded, smiling slyly.
I blushed at this remark. "Why should I?" making back a face, which he probably couldn't see.
"Fine..." he replied back, sounding a bit disappointed.
He took his share from my hand, and took a sip. All of a sudden, he pulled me near him and transferred the liquid from his mouth to mine while our tongues danced in between. We pulled back once the dance was over. While both of us were breathing heavily, I was totally embarrassed and taken completely off-guard. I could feel the heat rise to my face, probably making it red, but I was happy that it was dark enough so that he couldn't see. I kissed him once more, attempting to catch him off-guard this time, yet I felt that it was completely unsuccessful. His lips felt cool against mine from the drink, but they were smooth yet slightly sticky against mine. Gradually the felt warm as his tongue reached forth for mines and began the dance once more. Eventually, we both pulled back as I slid myself besides him on the mat, resting my head on his shoulder and arm. As I snuggled beside him, his scent mingled with the humid, but cool air. I could see his tinted profile gazing towards the sky above, watching the show above attentively. All around us, I could hear the soft rustle of the grass as they sway with small breathe of the wind. Fireflies dance around us as their soft glows turn on and off at each beat of their own...

Sorry, but I think that's it for tonight. Will [hopefully] complete tomorrow! Actually must...x.x
[Amy's self reminder: August 12]

And how long have I not posted now? Hm...I'd say a pretty long while.
So...school life has been strenous more than ever, and er dunnos, I think I might die soon from the lack of sleep? AP is triple the assignment, math is just kill me now, and the rest is probably just the same.
Family? Eh, I'd say that this whole side hates me whenever my uncle's home, but otherwise...I'm pretty much ignored half the times. The other side, on the other hand, I've been more distant towards my sister...I don't know, it just seems that way, and my mom's been moodier than ever after she's broken up with him.
Friendship...oddly, it felt weird being back in a group on thursday, but nonetheless it was fun. And...HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENDI and HAPPY BELATED BDAY! [dunno if you'll read this, but yeah, I get to finally say it x] and I think I don't need to say Happy Early Birthday, I think you've heard it enough times ^^;]
Romance...distance, distance. Or at least, that's what it feels like. Maybe busy-ness? Maybe...something I should not say? I don't knows any more.
Ok, basically in short, I'm just distancing myself from everyone, and secluding myself from all sorts of contact. Why? I have no idea. Partially it's due to school, no most of it is due to school. I hardly have time to talk to my friends any more, even Aang [...i.i] because I spend so much time doing homework, if not procrastinating. But I think it's getting better...maybe? At least I got my chem hw done xD. Darnit...I'm still competiting against Ravi ==; [and why are we talking again...? Any one have any ideas?] And I probably won't even make it on to the Principal's List this year, considering the...eh, I won't complain =X.
And DARNIT WHY DO THE RANDOM CHILDHOOD FLASHBACKS HAVE TO COME BACK NOW?! Why couldn't they have just left me forever...==; Bleh, so much for finding out why I'm so monophobic and scared of so many other things. Now I know why I hate my family so much...or well not like them even more for more reasons.

Anyway, moving on. My break...my summary:
Thurday or Wednesday?: What did I do on thursday? I don't even remember...oh yeah, I mentioned it already xD I was out with friends [yay!] And what did I do before that...? Wait, was it wednesday or thursday when we met up? I think it was wednesday now...yeah, it was. Right after school was piano practice, which was probably the least successful since I kept falling asleep, but after a few days I figured out why I was so tired...*cough*. Anyways. Right after that, I rushed home just in time to make several phone calls for the meeting. Luckily enough, I gots Lexi to give me a ride x] and yeah, what did we do? I think half the group was overly hyper off something...sugar? Tiredness? Eh, who knows. about 60-80% of the trip around the mall went to scavenging a present for my sister, Dana, which I finally found after 3 stores, and which I later found did not fit. How dandy. T.T Ah wells, at least she loves it though. And I'm still scared of Hot Topic >.>...Never put me in that place again. Or Spencers. Those are the two places Amy cannot go. All in all, right after dinner, we split, and then Lexi had to fill up her addiction of...*cough* censored, censored. Meanwhile, Amy wanders off aimlessly in Barnes and Nobles. And then we wandered out, and then met up with the rest, and then split up again because we had to leave, and before that, the shop, or whatever you call it, that Kendi recommended, I couldn't find anything for my sister. But I found something else fairly interesting....>D...ok, that looks evil. Well, interesting day, much? Maybe not to you, but it was for me x] [and also very tiring, but it was worth it]

Ok, now...
Thursday: My sister's birthday~ Yay~ Well like I said, she liked what I gave her, unlike the present my dad gave her...>.>. *cough* Well so what did I give her? You could guess >] Eh, well you might as well find out anyways. Ish a glass jewelry box and inside was the ring I got her from the trip the day before. [How romantic~ Yeah right. I ish not her boyfriend, ish the sisterly love, as Aang puts it xD] And as for what my dad gave her, I would rather not say...bleh, might as well. He gots her a...*drumroll* *badump ching* flashlight. Ok, who ...? wha? why? I'm not going to ask. My mom just simply made a joke out of it saying, "he's meaning is just 'to brighten your road so you don't get lost'" or something like that. Which didn't really help. I sooo~ envy her for getting a $50 gift card to B&N from one of my mom's co-workers. Grr. Ah wells. Well, since we were heading to the mall anyways, and went to Barnes and Nobles, she gots herself a 3D puzzle, which I've heard they were highly obnoxious and hard to figure out. But she wanted a challenge, and since it's break, so why not? And guess what? She finished that thing in an hour. That little crazy mouse. I so envy her skills, but then again, I think she got it from my mom who's amazing good with puzzles and such, and I'm the one who sucks at them. And dinner for that night was...the same thing at the same place and almost at the same time as the night before. Wow, deja vu much [neh, maybe not] ? Or just a coincidence? And yeah, that was a day.

Friday-Saturday: Nothing much to say, just dad's side family day, a day to suffer from. Walked around from Nanuet Mall to the Palisades Mall on Friday. Then on Saturday went from RiteAid to the nearest Dollarstore [was kinda surprised to see who worked there...Dennis Kelly?] while waiting for my aunt's meds then back to RiteAid, argued with the pharmacists because of their deafness then headed to Palisades then went home. The end.

Sunday: Mom's side family day. Oh boy, the mom's got really moody when me and Dana were glued to the computer. Well more like, we didn't know when we had to leave so...yeah. It's our fault, nonetheless. But anyhow, my mom's been telling us that we had to leave soon since she really wanted to go to Woodbury Commons. It took a while to get there, and the place was huge, so after being there I could see why she was so anxious for us to leave early. It totally didn't turn out how I'd expect it to be, I mean that place was HUGE. It's like nyc in an organized form o.o;. But there wasn't a point for me going there, the outcome of me shopping against the prices: 2 shirts. A T-shirt that I bought at Converse [didn't expect to buy anything there] for $5 and a cami I got for...I don't remember, but it's most likely under five. But me does not belong in a place with stores like Ralph Lauren, Gucci, Coach, etc etc. Meanwhile, shopping for the rest of the group: my mom owed her a birthday present, which were a pair of Converse, and luckily, they were able to find a pair in the store, and my uncle got her the shoelaces, and she got jeans from Aero, my uncle got sandals, I think? I don't know what else he got, and my mom got sneakers. Overall, I think they've probably spent about $120 more or less, counting $40 per pair of shoes. Oh good golly. o.o Dinner that night wasn't cheap either. We ate out at Friendly's, and the total of the meal was about $70-80. [And I would not recommend that place for meals, just get the ice cream there and leave.] And that was my Sunday. Yum. [xD so corny...]

Monday [kind of today depending on when I post this]: I ran around a lot. Though I could've hung out again, but eh, I think I was better off practicing today since the weather was great out and it was a nice walk/run, running from the Nyack College back home 2-4 times depending on how you count it. First time was from 11:30-12:30 but I ended up getting home at 1 because I was wandering around on the fields. And I love how they were filled with holes. Ick. *goosebumps moment* And why was I on the fields then? Because I was looking for something, and that's a secret =X. But it's definitely not something that lives in the holes, that I do not want to know. First time practice...it was all quiet at first then it got loud...T.T and I still can't get the same parts as when I played it last week...lovely. 1-3, retreated home for lunch. 3-4 ran back again, only ended up getting lost because I was trying to avoid the group playing on the field; I could see a couple of his brothers on the field, so yeah, a reason why I avoided them. I ran from the middle school baseball field, saw a group of people playing something...then ran off in the direction of his place, saw something that seemed like someone was getting something from the family's car, then ran back again and just took a whole detour around the middle school and college until I finally got the practice place. For most of the practice time, I couldn't bring myself to play Coming Home, the piece Ms. Plu wants me to play, so instead I played [or tried to] Unfaithful by Rihanna. At least I got through about 3.5 pages of the piece...but then again I'm just repeating myself throughout those few pages. ==; Anyway, when I was heading home, I decided to pass through the field. Apparently, one of his friends spotted me and asked if I was looking for someone, and my response was ers, I dunnos...I dunno if he's he here. And he responded, "oh, he's here alright" [not exactly his words] and then he took off looking for him. While waiting, a girl started chatting with me, who I found out she was Chinese and was fluent in mandarin and her nickname was Amy. o.O Coincidence? And I was surprised that he actually went looking for him. Well, talking to him, I felt a distance. Maybe not because of his cold, but from something else...eh, who knows, maybe it's just me. Or maybe it's not.

Break Activities~ [yay~ as if my entry isn't long enough already~]
The only things I've been doing besides those are...jewelry making, writing, and drama. Jewelry making has become painful enough that I stopped for a few days after getting burned and bruised so much. At least they're gone now...who ever thought that making hearts was so painful xD I still have a long way to go ._. Writing hasn't gotten any further than the wirewrapping...my story is still not getting anywhere...being only 4 pages long. Drama...OMGSH [pauleen?] I'M SO INLOVE WITH THIS SERIES XDD seriously. I've been watching My Lucky Star these past few days, and I'm so addicted. If only my internet wasn't so mean to me, I think I would be glued, but then again, I'm glad that it's not working [um, Amy, are you ok? o.O;] Ah, it's been a while since I cried like that or laughed like that for a reason [that I actually know and understand, unlike my random hysteria moments or when I cry with an unknown reason of the moment]. One more minute until it's Tuesday. I guess I'll continue this next time~ G'mornite.

o.o It's been almost a month since I posted...eh heh, gomen ^^; there's just so much I could say but I just can't put into words...
So how's life? Eh, I say it's ok...oO, but the good news is I passed all my midterms with an 85+!! So proud of myself x]] In english, we've been working on descriptive creative writing, and here's my first one:

As the sun grows tired, it descends slowly down the horizon, dragging along its soft curtain of warm shades of purple, orange, and pink. Gradually, a new set of curtains are spread about amongst the skies, tinting the old with shades of sapphire and indigo. Slowly, stars begin to make their appearance within the evening sky. They glitter and dazzle, dancing along to a silent, imaginary beat, as they anxiously wait for an important guest to arrive. Meanwhile, as the new stage is being set up, up above, below an ocean of blue shimmers and gleams anxiously but gracefully watching its show. As a gentle breeze blew by, the grasses swayed to and fro, and the soft scent of the salty waters drifts from the ocean into the air. At last, it was time for her majesty to arise. She climbed graciously up the now velvet sapphire sky and a delicate blanket of clouds are wrapped around her. Tenderly, she softly shines a translucent light on the lands below her, waiting for the celebration to begin.

Underneath its beam, shines the glistening ocean. It sparkles and flutters as its soft waves gently hit the rocks and cliffs nearby, glittering in the translucent light that is shown upon it. A small roar and then a silent hush is what the ocean speaks, its verse is repeated as it becomes the ocean’s melodic tune. Suddenly, a breeze blew across the lands in a spur of a moment, impelling the grasses to hasten their dance. The sound of their sways creates a rhythmic pattern as they dance in the wind, adding another beat to the oceans tune. Amongst the grass were the crickets, who chirped softly with their soprano but peaceful voices. Alongside of them are the cicadas, who hung on the thick barks of massive trees that grew within the colossal forest. As they routinely drink the sweet sap from the nourishing tree, they gradually bellowed their low voices into the missing alto fragment of the piece. Hence, the first phase of the composition was complete, and the celebration has begun. Fireflies now awakened by this joyous melodic tune. They dance and sway about, gleaming off soft glowing lights hither and thither, attracting many other visitors to join this party. By the second phase, a group of boisterous vocalists, the night birds, hooted, cooed, and cawed while a bass choir of obscured, mysterious animals laid back in the dark hissing and sighing, sending a low murmuring sound as they breathed. As the song continues, more animals came into play. Distorted silhouettes and shadows flew from one tree to another as the playful monkeys climbed and leaped about, sending coconuts to fly and crash in each and every direction. Meanwhile, frogs from the nearby creek croaked continuously as it tried to harmonize with the echoing chimes of the crickets. Each measure increased its crescendo, until all that was heard a wild roar. Gradually, as the night became late, the animals became exhausted, and the song slowly went into a diminuendo. As the animal grew tired, group by group, each left to retire. Slowly, the music made a ritardando as the decrescendo amplified until there was nothing left but the soft sound of the ocean’s voice and the rustling dance of the grass as the wind sighed. Alas, everything with a beginning has an end…

As her majesty grew tired of the long night, she descends down from the stage, dragging along her cloak of the velvet sapphire night. Her followers as well, the stars, were now tired from the fun yet restless night. They as well silently tuck themselves back into the blankets of the night, vanishing behind the clouds of twilight. Meanwhile, a new blanket of warmth is now spread across the sky as it awaits the empress of the sun to arise. As the night has their own festival, the day has theirs…and now begins the Song of the Day.

Ah!! I haven't posted in so long, I think I might go insane @.@
Ok so highlights of December:
12/13 - Lexi's sweet 16 party. It was fun, had fun talking, and hanging out with a few groups...I love how everyone just bunched up into a group from one side of the room to the next xD. Oh, and this was probably my first time dancing x] Meh, I fail, but at least I tried! My failure: 3 people tried to help my with the electric slide, and I still didn't it get by the last round -.- Hasoukashi >//<! But thank yous Lexi, I enjoyed the chocolate >]
12/24-25 -  Yay~ Christmas~ and the presents >]... well this year wasn't that great I guess...I gots 3 things from friends at school, while I just gave out cards. And then at home...well this side of the family didn't get me anything, not surprising really. On my mom's side, I gots $15 from my grandparents, and an mp3 from my mom, and I wonder what my uncle got me...oh yeah, gift certificates to Kinokuniya, yay! Everyone's gone broke.
12/31-1/1 - Eh, did nothing but stared at the computer for hours straight...there weren't even fireworks this year... -.-

Happy New Years everyone~~ And hope you all started out with a wonderful one!
As for me, well...
From the end of last year, everything just seemed to fall apart -.- My family...my friends...relationship...bleh.

First, family: hm, where should I start...I guess I'll start with my christmas vacation, I guess. I found out that my mom just broke up with her boyfriend, which she's been with for about 12 years now almost 13...I'm surprised she hasn't broken down, just been a little moody about it. Well, I guess that's a good thing, since she could still stand strong. But that's not the main point, the fact is, her boyfriend is my sister's dad. I wonder how she's dealing with this, even though she says she's fine, but she isn't like me. She likes to hold everything inside and take it out by anger and force. She's already had a harsh childhood with having an unofficial father and quite a distant one in fact...and besides that, her middle school life seems pretty crappy to me, or it's just the way her friends are treating her doesn't sound right. Bleh, besides my mom and her boyfriend's break up, things between my grandparents [mom's parents] doesn't look all that pretty either. Even during Christmas dinner, things didn't feel right at the table...it seemed a bit tense. For some reason I think I remember hearing my grandpa say that he wants to divorce my grandma...not sure if they actually are though, hopefully not. Afterwards, when my mom called to take pictures, an arguement just broke out between them, and then it ended with my grandma going to bed and sobbing...everything seemed so dreadful and depressing...lately, my mom's been getting moody about the phone. My grandma's been calling a lot, seeming to beg for sympathy and pity [in my mom's eyes]. The phone call always ends with my mom yelling through the phone, which me and my sister could hear in the bedroom, even with the door closed. My sister never seems to mind...it seems like she's gotten  use to it...as for me, I don't know what to do...Oh and by now, all that was just about my mom's side. Now how about the dad's...well I've been trying to avoid my uncle as much as possible because he's on vacation since the week of Christmas until next monday. Lucky him. This side of the family knows how much we don't like each other, so my aunt keeps telling me to hold it together so I don't push his limits. But heck, he keeps pushing mine. Every little thing that I do that displeases him, he loves to make rants about...just like how I'm eating less..which isn't true, but it's just that I just don't eat the same things that I use to. He just had to say something about it. So it was my last click and I just shot him a comment, and my dad tried to stop him from talking, but it just made everything worse. Afterwards, he said that he should be able to say whatever, and if I don't like it then I shouldn't live here and yadayada and then said something about disclaiming [? dunno if that's the right choice of word] as niece. I probably had a crappy day before that, so after he said that, I just sat out and sobbed...things still aren't better in this house than the other. Everyone just seems to hate each other in this house...they just keep discussing about how wrong one's actions is behind their backs to one another and the same cold battles are still fought on a weekly basis. I'm tired of this. I envy how happy other families are, especially after seeing how happy my cousin and their family was...At home, I feel lonely. There's no one to ever talk to in this place...my dad can't hear me unless I yell into his ear, my aunt would get annoyed if I even spoke to her because half the time she's busy, or if we do talk, it's mostly about how horrible her day was at work or what's on sale at the groceries. Then there's my other aunt, whom I don't talk to because she scares me by popping out of nowhere all of a sudden from time to time, but then everyone in this house hates her or no, they just dislike her because they believe that she's possessed. My uncle on the other hand, only talks to me whenever he wants to see what new movies are out or something about whatever he's watching that seems pointless to me--it's always about wars in ancient China, which I take no interest in whatsoever since I'm against blood and gorey movies. So yeah...I try to stay as far away possible from them, but I know by doing that it won't improve the situation any better...it's all just making it worse. I've tried acting cheerful for once...but it never worked out. They're just like, "why are you so happy? And quit running around now will ya? You're gonna break your leg if you continue" and blah blah, pessimists. So yeah...in other words, if I'm happy and their sad, most likely within a few seconds of being with them, I'll turn sad and gloomy with them, being happy isn't a solution. Besides, wearing a mask at home? Do I really need to?

Secondly, my friends...: I don't know what's up with me lately, probably because I've been depressed for so long, I've distant myself from them? Or it's probably just how I have an issue or wording things out that I've kept things to myself for so long that made me go into depression. [that sentence look grammatical wrong, eh, but whatever, hope you understand it =P] It's just...I dunno, I can't say the things that I want to, I have the idea in my head it's just words won't come out. So whenever people ask me what's wrong, I just answer with gibberish. And then there's also the fact where I don't trust people much...and I don't want to burden them either. I never liked the feeling when someone tells you what's bothering them, you can never say the right things to comfort them, but instead you either stay quiet for a moment and say sorry or in general, you just can't do anything about it to help them. I...just don't know what to do about my situation either. But slowly, I guess, I'm trying to work it back up.

Thirdly, relationship: Eh, I tell myself not to think about it too much, but it never works. I still end up thinking about it...too much. Just like to my friends, I can't tell him the things I want to without having it sound awkward, so whenever he asks "what happened?" or "what's wrong?" I usually answer "I don't know." But then the times when I'm with him, when those questions come up, the reason why I can't answer them is different...but sort of the same. I just can't answer because whenever he asks there's just so many things going on in my mind that I can't find the right words to say. [Ahaha, I feel stupid -.-] I worry so much when I start thinking about our relationship...I mean besides the obvious that's keeping us apart...there's still things that are unsettling between us that's bothering me. Let's see if I can say/write this out right...[meh, I even almost spelt right wrong by using the word write instead ><] I feel like he lacks understanding of me...I know he gets the basic knowledge of me but I think there's other things too that he should know, but then there's my weird side of liking to have people guess and find out what those things are...so I never end up telling him. [why does this sound confusing to me already...? Sorry if I've confused you ><] And then there's the part where I don't really know him much either...I've only known him for like, what, 4 months? I still want to know more, I just don't know from where. And yes, Kendi, I'm aware of the fact that communication is essential, but for me, communicating with others...isn't so easy. Beyond that, I fear of him turning out to be one of those who, once they've got what they've wanted, they get all arrogant about it and move on to a next *cough cough* [this should sound familiar to you, Alexis and Kendi if you ever get to read this part] But he doesn't seem like the type to, so I don't think I'm worried as much about that. Then there's the part about timing and luck and such. Luck lately for me has gone downhill, but I don't think I should get into that just yet because it doesn't seem like it belongs here. But as for timing, we've been pretty distant lately, probably because I've gotten more schoolwork to do and he's trying to keep his distance and not to rush things, and there's also his parents...and mine. Oh, and I'm surprised my dad hasn't been on my case yet, even though he's gotten some hints that there's something going on between us...oh and he thinks that he only just has a crush on me, nothing else [hope you know which he is he @.@] So...yeah...back to distance...my friend suggests that we should just break up and let things go, but I'm afraid to ><. One part of me is being stubborn and feels that it should wastes all the effort put into this relationship, another part of me is scared to know what happens if we do break, and a really really small part of me opens when I'm depressing whispering to let go, it's just I refuse to listen. Then there's the selfish part of me, saying that if we break, academically, my grades are going downstream...I guess I should stop depressing you as the reader now.

Ok, so a side topic [yay~]. About my luck...let's see: I've been wanting to make a quiche for weeks now, but just yesterday, my family just totally went against the idea, so I failed. The frozen ones were expensive [$23 for 60 small quiches], not that my aunt would help me bake them anyway. But then, when I told them that I wanted to try to make it, they said sure at first, but then when we got to the grocery store, they said no. One of the reasons was because my aunt doesn't want to buy the frozen pie crust, but wants to make it, but then we'd have to buy 7 more other ingredients and spend more time on that and it was also because the crust was expensive-ish. And then there's was the thyme, which had to be so flippin expensive...grr! After I saw the price, I went back to meet my dad in some aisle with my head down, and so he's like "I guess you can't make it..." And my uncle just had to punch in the line, "well it's not like it's going to work out anyway. It'll just be a waste of money. You can't even cook" I was so in the mood of strangling him. And then yesterday, when we went to the mall, I wanted to try to buy the little biscuits that I couldn't get the last time. Turns out, they ran out of them again T.T rawr. Hopefully they'll have them buy my third try. Oh and did I mention that I was being a bee on monday and tuesday? All thanks to puberty. I hate it how I pms a day or two right before having it T.T I so wanted to just kill myself. I hate feeling that way, I hate how it makes me feel and what it makes me think. Bleh, whatever, at least after those two days I went from a depressed ghost to a happy crazy nut. Well to end this entry on a happy note, on the morning of January 3, I gots to see 5 meteors from the Quadrantids shower x], yay me~ Oh, and then there was the snow day on the 7th [wednesday]...but I dunno if it's worth being happy about. But yeah, if you were, then good for you. Be happy then, you deserve it J.

Well then, until next time~
[geez, this was a long entry, I wonder if it beat my longest entries o.o; well have fun reading~!]
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Oh...my.
I didn't think I should've done it, but apparently curiousity kills the cat and now the cat has died. Meow. (=x.x=)
Ok, so what did I do? Um, I had did a tarot reading for myself, which I haven't done since...what? Last year? Eh, probably since the beginning of summer...
So...my reading...eh heh...
Well this is how my condensed format goes: shuffle, pick out 3 cards from the deck, lay them out having the first one of the left being the past card, second one from it would be the present, and third one future. Yeah, I know I'm being lazy by not doing the other formats, but hey it works for me.
Anyhow, my cards:

Past:
Two of Cups (reversed): a tumultuous relationship has too many ups and downs. Open the lines of communication to avoid misunderstanding. Basic meaning: as you might expect, the Two of Cups is about partnerships, unions, and reunions. The relationships indicated by this card contain an emotional bond. Communicate your needs, then let go and see what happens. You will find support from others, or may clear up some bad feelings.

Present:
Page of Swords: Pages represent news. A new perspective and a new way of doing things are approaching. The focus is on unexpected events in love and relationships, messages, motions, growth, and ideas. If you are hearing negativity, don't believe it. Joy will replace pessimism, so don't give up. Your search will have a successful conclusion, and everything will turn out just fine.

Future:
Nine of Pentacles: Wisdom, knowledge, and talent are present, but no love life; this is a lonely time, to be met with a measure of detachment. Success, recognition, and wealth will follow. Sometimes this card appears in the reading of a woman who is successful, but widowed or single, or a person who has great love for home and garden. Otherwise, the focus is on business, corporate enterprises, promotion, mediation, or advancement. A tempting offer will be presented. Eliminate your weak points, and doubts. Promote yourself, your business, and social activities. You will serve others, increase your wealth, and your desire for a union will be fulfilled.

Er, yeah...I don't know how else to interpret this but to say this is a pretty much so-so to a not so great reading.

天阿，为什么? 为什么你需開玩笑同我啦...? 嗎...? Not sure how I want to end the sentence...xD llama! ...meh... [and if you're planning on using an online translator, I suggest you don't since the thing won't translate it properly, but then again it depends on what translator you're using...eh, do whatever you want =P]

Ok, so on with my day...I don't even know how to say how it was...it was pretty...bland. Or it's just that I've been going on and off for most of the day, not to mention that I'm so~ going to fail that essay that I have to write in English tomorrow since I didn't pay attention for most of it. Oh boy. Meh, I think I might fall asleep on the computer, so I shall post another time, later maybe? Well then until then~